No artwork today. Just a post about my mom feelings! Today my youngest son begins high school! That means we've seen one all the way through those years ( he is now married and doing great ) and 1 halfway through and we're now beginning the journey with another. I know everyone says this, but I just don't know where the years have gone! I vividly remember skipping (ok, maybe only inside of me!) down the hall of his elementary so very happy that my last little bird was on his way out the nest. I laughed at those first timers who were crying over leaving their little darlings with the teacher! In my opinion, once they got a taste of a few hours of freedom, they would be skipping along with me.
Fast forward 9 years and I can no longer skip physically due to spinal cord damage and multiple sclerosis that was diagnosed a couple of months after dropping off that kindergartner. In fact, that year was the only year of his life that I could walk with him to the first day of school. He only has very vague memories of a mom who could walk. I wish I could go back in time and tell that carefree me to not rush things. To live in the moment. To cherish every little second she had with those little boys. I feel like I lost so much of their growing up years in the hospitalizations, therapy and medical chaos that ensued.
God has been so good through the years and I know He filled in the gaps in their lives that a sick mom couldn't. He also has allowed me to have many years of relative stability and the ability to ( almost ) fully participate in all they do, despite my disability.
Now, my last two babes are well on their way to being grown men who will no longer need their mommy. I am not skipping inside today but I am filled with thankfulness that my God has allowed me to see them to this point and with His grace I will be there for the remaining milestones in their lives. There is no higher calling and no greater honor than to be mom to my precious sons.
This is my spot to share my creativity through word and paper art.
Belinda, I remember all three of the boys as "little boys" and I'm catching my breath to realize that the oldest (I won't use their names) is already married and now the youngest is in high school! Do you realize how old that makes me??? Don't answer that please! I have watched your strenght throughout the years and your faithfulness to God and you are truely an inspiration! With everything I have gone through the last few years, I still think to myself, wow, I haven't had to endure anything, but Belinda has! Keep your faith, keep God first and all the rest will fall into place! I admire you!! Lorie T
ReplyDeleteYou are my hero Belinda!! Love ya sis, R
ReplyDeleteBeautiful Belinda, just like you!
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